My Dad

My dad is the only parent I have left and his health is dwindling away, he is 77 and is on dialysis and has had a triple by pass with a valve replacement, stints, has high bp, and was a diabetic for years. He just had cataract surgery last week, is very independent and still lives on his own. Then the appointment on the 21st was a big game changer, diagnosis CANCER. this rocked our world. they are not sure where the cancer originated yet, more tests to come but they're thinking it could be lung or liver related. He asked his cardiologist if the knot on his neck looked like it needed to be checked, yes I know the man is a heart doctor, and this was over a year ago when the knot was small and the cardiologist told him no, it was nothing to worry about. So now here we are. Could you find it in your hearts, I don't cared what deity you pray to or if you just send healing and love to him, please say a pray, send energy, light a candle but please ask for healing for him. this all I can bring myself to write at this moment besides thank you in advance.

I just don't know.......

Sometimes I feel like I am trapped. I just don't know what to do about it. My health is not the best and I feel I have let my husband down at times because I am not able to get out and work like I have all my life, sometimes I just don't know how we are going to make it to the next payday. I have been denied disability even though my doctor has disabled me, the reason you ask, well is because I wasn't disabled before 2009. I have worked all my life, sometimes 3 jobs at a time to make ends meet for my family. I was a single mom for several years, I have never until now had to depend on anyone else to support me and I just don't know how I feel about it, grateful yes, but also worthless and a burden at times. It amazes me that people who are not a citizen or have alcohol or drug addiction or get this, I know someone who actually went in to MHMR and told them they chased cars and barked at them, got disability, HE LIED. I was told by 3, yes 3 lawyers and someone who works for Social Security to sell everything, divorce my husband and I might qualify for SSI...hmmmm, isn't that FRAUD?? I am not wanting a hand out, I am just wanting what I have paid in to Social Security for 43 years but it's not going to happen. I am not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me, just doing a little venting. I have to go, I have got to pay what bills I can out of this paycheck and try to figure out how I am going to pay the rest...ttyl.

Juat a lazy day at home

Today was just a lazy day for me, it would have been a bit more productive if I hadn't tripped over Max and fell, man oh man I am sore.Let me tell you a bit about Max, he's a Great Pyrenees and Lab mix 4 month old puppy who is as big as an ox, lol. Let me tell you, when he stops in front of you you come to a stop too, but I didn't stop, I kept going, over and down. I am dreading tomorrow, I know I will really be hurting.    
I'm not going to keep boring you with this, I will ttyl......

Just breathe

To feel overwhelmed and sometimes alone seems to be a "normal" in our society now days. It is a sad fact that a lot of us feel this way on a daily basis and all the medical field wants to do is medicate. To me this is not necessary in most cases, we just need to learn to BREATHE.

Have you ever had some tell you , it's okay, just breathe through it? I have learned to do this to help lower my blood pressure and heart rate, I just breathe. Yes, I am on meds for these problems but that doesn't mean it works all the time. Just Breathe, it's a calming effect.

Have you ever thought about meditation? Have you ever wondered how they can stay so calm? You clear your mind, let go, and JUST BREATHE. Try it sometime, see if during a time you're stressed, feel an anxiety attack coming on, sit back, deep breaths and breathe, isn't that nice? Make a daily habit of taking a few minutes for your self to do this, breathe and give thanks for life is too short for so much stress and anxiety that society puts on us today. Breathe and enjoy it.

Teach your children to do this and see if it makes a difference in their young lives, children now days are under so much pressure from school and friends and they need to BREATHE as well.